I’ve always been comfortable in my pain with a habit of holding onto situations or relationships that are wrong for me because it’s familiar. Safer than venturing into the unknown. But this year, no more waiting for change that won’t come. No more hoping for things to fix themselves. It’s time to liberate myself from my darkness.
I’m liberating myself from a body I’m uncomfortable in by challenging myself to run every day.
I’m no longer holding myself hostage in other people’s expectations.
No more shackling myself to unhappy, unhealthy relationships.
I’m done mentally and emotionally imprisoning myself in my past.
I’ve been starting each month with Gala Darling’s Radical Self Love Almanac. October is all about embracing luxury. Amazingly, after filling out my chapter for the month, I pulled the Empress for my tarot of the month ritual. She’s all about – you guessed it! – luxury! So from the first of the month, I’ve been in a luxe state of mind.
Less than two weeks after I accepted this energy, I’ve had many opulent experiences come my way.
On October 2nd, I was invited to a preview party for the holiday Sugarfina line. It was held at Park Avenue – a swank restaurant that changes with the seasons. They served endless champagne, some of the most delicious and inventive hor d’oeuvres, AND let us sample all the candy we could handle. I discovered their chocolate covered popcorn and developed an addiction to a forthcoming gingerbread cookie bites. At the end of the night, they gifted us a bunch of candy and let us send a free candy bento to a friend.
Last weekend my mom and sister treated me to spa day at the Sea Spa in Cape May. We got our nails done – I picked a gold that literally looks like my fingertips were dipped in gold leaf – and then we got hour-long facials. It felt glorious! But the best part was getting to spend time with my sister.
This week, I was ready to make a hair appointment – and my haircuts cost around $300 because hair like mine requires the curl experts. Just before I was going to make the call, the salon emailed me that they needed hair models. So not only did I get the haircut I desperately needed, but it was FREE! So I treated myself to a bottle of their amazing leave in conditioner to treat my hair to the decadence it deserves.
It’s looking like we’ll be able to move into a new place next year, so I’m working hard to manifest the perfect apartment.
Here’s what I want to make HAPPEN:
East Village – I really want to stay in my neighborhood.
Doorman – So my deliveries no longer go missing
Closer to trains – We’re equidistant from 5 lines as it stands, but I’d like to be closer to Astor.
Yes dogs – Because Muldoon goes where I go!
Dishwasher – please please please!
Outdoor space – Whether it’s a tiny balcony or a finished rooftop, I want to be able to get outside.
Decent view – This means being high enough in a building.
I’ve been diligently using my Passion Planner to keep track of my life, my goals and my progress. I chose a word at the beginning of the year to embody my intentions. What have I been able to manifest so far?
Art – I’ve kept up my goal of writing here at a regular cadence. I learned some lettering techniques and doodle in my bujo instead of just writing down ideas and appointments. Now I have a guitar so I’m slowly making music too!
Plans – Well here’s a big one. I’m currently making WEDDING plans. I had no idea that would be a thing at the start of the year. Additionally, I planned time with my sister to get tattoos. Time with friends by planning regular DnD sessions, starting a new skeeball team, and returning to a monthly Nintendo MeetUp cadence.
Memories – I post to Instagram a lot less, and when I do, it’s after the fact. At concerts, I don’t record. I take a few photos to post later, but spend the vast majority of my time in the moment.
Friends – By prioritizing time with the awesome friends I’ve got, my social circle has expanded a little. At work, I invite colleagues for a post-work drink to get to know them as people.
Money – My little Rover business has really taken off! Last year, I had 2 new clients total. In just the first half of this year, I’ve gotten EIGHT new clients, as well as my regulars. Money is flowing to me easily this year.
As part of resetting my financial mindset, I created a money manifesting wallet this week. It was time to upgrade my wallet anyway – my new iPhone no longer fit into the wallet/phone charger case I’d bought a couple years ago. The most powerful colors for attracting abundance are green, gold and red. I was drawn toward this red Kate Spade with gold accents. I admired Spade’s feminine power, business acumen, bold yet classic aesthetic and endless creativity. She was a true inspiration, and one of very few designers I ever felt compelled to follow.
Brand new Kate Spade
It’s the perfect size to fit into even my smallest clutches. Four dual-sided card slots (two on each side) hold the cards I need most often without getting bulky. In fact, it’s thin enough that I can keep my WeWork badge and my IBM ID on opposite sides and scan into work without having to remove either one of them!
Insert intention here!
I elected to have quotation marks embossed in gold on the back. Symbolic, of course! These quotes hold the intention I set and keep it fresh in my memory, reminding me of my words every time I see them glittering.
The center pocket unzips to reveal black and white vertical stripes inside. The white stripes draw positive energy in while the black stripes expel negativity.
I charged up some altar items to keep in the middle: a Ulysses S. Grant dollar coin (of the $1 coins I have, he is the only one looking toward the future), a Borgata poker chip to bring unexpected luck and good fortune, and a paper bill because like attracts like (this dollar will never be spent). 💵
Now I’m all set and ready to manifest with my tiny, portable abundance altar by my side! I keep the diamond coin purse from my Vegas Money Spell on my altar and add paper bills – $1’s to $20’s – as they come to me. It’s my stationary cash-attracting beacon that lives on my home altar. No matter where I am, the Universe has my address to send the checks!